NORMAL LIFE

Just got back from that surgery

I prepared for months in advance

When I woke up, I felt so weary

To feel any joy the narcosis gave me no chance

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Tears and tears and tears and tears and

Weeping on that hospital bed

The nurse asked me “What makes you so sad?”

I couldn’t get this thought out of my head:

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Deeply longing for that normal life

I am further drifting away from

Decisions are made, the twenties passed by

I can only hope the steadiness will come 

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And just as each and every single year

I come back to my home town’s fair

There’s a new spouse, a new baby, a new house

All I can name is another faceless affair

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Fears and fears and fears and fears and

Wondering when I’ll be settling, too?

I am this big city alien who

Is actually afraid to admit the truth:

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Deeply longing for that normal life

I am further drifting away from

Decisions are made, the twenties passed by

I can only hope the steadiness will come 

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But as soon as I’m back

In my newly found society

It is easy to track

People just like me, finally

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Deeply longing for that normal life

I am further drifting away from

Decisions are made, the twenties passed by

I can only hope the steadiness will come 

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© written by Cosima Charlotte